January 2009!!!!

Happy New Year! It has been a very eventful year, especially with the birth of Jade. We are so glad she is growing and developing so well. She really is fun to have around and I really can't imagine our family without her. It will be fun to see how 2009 turns out and what things she has accomplished in a year.

January 4th was not a very fun day. It was fast Sunday and I had been fasting that I would be able to come to terms with this new pregnancy. I have been feeling guilty because I didn't really want to be pregnant. I had talked about going back to school now that Jade was easier to leave for an hour or two. I really wanted to finish up my degree and I thought this would be a great time to start again. I was also really nervous because Jade and the new baby would be so close in age. The thought of handling a 15 month old and a brand new baby at the same time were frightening. So I guess I was fasting for a piece of mind with this pregnancy and a little bit of excitement. The thought had been in the back of my mind though that this pregnancy was very different. For starters, the ultrasound that I had several weeks back didn't pick up a heart beat and that made me nervous. Also the fact that I had two days of some nausea and nothing else for several weeks. I thought maybe I had just gotten lucky with this baby but it was so different from my pregnancy with Jade that it was just another warning sign that something might be wrong. So on Sunday after fasting, I started thinking that maybe I was going to miscarriage. Sure enough, that night Aaron, Jade and I were down at my parent's house for Sunday dinner when I started to spot. I spotted with Jade about this same time but again the nagging feeling that something wasn't quite right started up again. My brothers, dad and Aaron gave me a blessing and Aaron blessed me that I would be okay and so would the baby. We went home but I continued to spot and by about 11pm I was starting to cramp. During the middle of that night, I woke up with serious abdominal pain. I went to the bathroom and miscarried. I've never had that happen to me before, even though I have seen it a million times at the hospital. However, I wasn't really prepared to have it happen to me. Even though I had been having nagging feelings all day that something wasn't right, it still took me by surprise. I told Aaron and he was very supportive. I think he was a little nervous because I wasn't very emotional. I think I was more in shock that anything else. I went back to sleep that night not feeling much. I was just too shocked to really express my emotions. When I woke up that morning, Aaron asked if I wanted him to stay home. I told him no, that I would be alright. I called all of our family and told them the sad news, but never got emotional. It wasn't until that night, late, that I broke down. All day I had been thinking about what a horrible person I was because I didn't want to be pregnant. I felt like this was a way for God to punish me for being so selfish. Finally, my emotions just came to a head and I had a break down. I think it scared Aaron a little bit because it came out of no where. One moment we are having a normal conversation and the next I'm bawling my eyes out. No matter what I told myself about the statistics of a miscarriage, or that it wasn't my fault, that it just happens, I just couldn't stop feeling guilty. I finally fell asleep (because that is what I do when I am upset. I sleep really well!) When I woke up that morning Aaron told me he was taking a day off of work. He fixed me breakfast and told me to just take it easy. My feelings didn't change but it sure was nice to have his support that day. We just hung out, put away Chrismas decorations, Aaron worked on our fireplace, and we played games. It was a great day and by the end, I felt more at peace with myself and God. It was a horrible experience to have to go through and I totally empathize with those ladies that come into the ER miscarring. However I feel like a learned a lot about myself and my Heavenly Father.

January 8th, The stake president, President Murphy, and his second counselor stopped by the house today unexpected. I just happened to be flexed from work and Aaron and I were sitting watching TV whent he doorbell rang. The president came in and just chatted with the both of us for about 30 minutes and then left us with a word of prayer. It was nice to visit with him but of course we were both very interested in why he came to visit us. When I told our neighbor she said it was because they were looking for a new bishop. I guess ours lost his job and he has been looking out of state for a new one. Let's hope that Aaron doesn't get called to be bishop. With how busy he is with his job right now, I just don't know were he would find the time. Let's keep our fingers crossed!

January 10th, I have decided that with the miscarriage, maybe I should really go back to school. I had talked about it with Aaron before we found out we were pregnant and then just put it on the back burner when I really was pregnant. But now that I'm not, I think maybe I will. I have to have one more prerequiste before I can apply to the U of U's BSN program. It's a 16 month internet program and I could get in this next fall. So I've registered at SLCC for a Bio-organic chemistry class. I'll take that for spring semester and then be ready to turn in my application to the U for the fall semester. It's two days a week for an hour plus I have to have a lab. So maybe I will get Jen Sorensen to watch Jade for me two days and week and get this class done. I haven't talked to her yet but that would be that plan. I start class on Monday (it's Saturday) so I better hurry, huh?

Tonight we went up to Park City and met all the Gunn kids for dinner. We ate at our favorite mexican restaurant, Baja Cantina. We then decided to go to the hot springs because we weren't able to go on New Years. We got to the hot springs and there were naked people in it again. It was super crowded for some reason and with the naked people, we decided to just leave. We were super disappointed that we had to end the night so early but Aaron came up with this awesome idea. We would rent a cheap hotel room that had a hot tub and then let everyone come over and crash it. But could we find a single room in Heber? NO. All of the cheap ones were full or they didn't have a hottub. Finally, we called the Homestead and instead of renting a cheap room, rented an expensive room. It was fun though. Everyone came over and we went to the pool. It was heated and they had a great hottub and we spent the rest of the night hanging out. Jade loved the water and had a really good time. It was getting late, so Aaron and I headed back to the room with Jade and on our way back to the room we saw a huge buck right outside our little room. It was eating the branches off the tree right next to our door. It didn't move the entire time. It just stood there and we were able to walk right past it and into our room. It turned out to be a really fun night and we stayed in a squeezie hotel room.

January 12th, I started by bio-organic chemistry class today. It's at nigh, Mondays and Wednesdays from 5-7pm plus a two hour lab in the early afternoon on Wednesday. So Jen Sorensen has agreed to watch Jade until Aaron get's home from work. I have to leave our house at 4:30pm to get to class on time. So she watches her from about 4:30-6pm and then watches her on Wednesdays starting at 1pm until Aaron gets home. This class looks like it's going to be a tough one. I haven't done chemistry in almost ten years and they expect you to have just taken it. So that will be challenging. But it is kind of fun to be back in school. I just hate how much it costs. The book was over $150. Unbelievable!!!!

Something quick about Jade. I walked in to her room this morning to get her up and found her standing in her crib holding on to the side rail. She was looking over the rail. Cute thing. I was so impressed that she had pulled herself up by herself. She hasn't been able to do that by herself yet. I guess this means were going to have to lower her bed so she doesn't lean over the rail and fall out.



Jade cheesing for the camera. I love this picture. It's so her in the mornings. She definately got that trait from her dad, not me!

January 13th, Jade woke up this morning with really bad diarrhea. I have had to change her diaper at least six times today. Because it doesn't really smell, I don't catch it in time and so her poor little bottom is just super red and raw. She screams every time I try to change her diaper. Poor thing. I wonder if she's getting another tooth. I guess we will see.

January 16th

Our new entertainment center. Jeremy Sorensen designed and made it for us. He did a really great job. Now we just need to finish the tile around the fireplace and install everything.

January 17

Jade at lunch with Dad Gunn wearing his hat and sunglasses.

January 18th, On our way home from Mom Gunn's house tonight, Jade threw up in her car seat. She had been acting cranky all afternoon and didn't eat a very good dinner but I didn't think anything about it. Her diarrhea has gotten better but she hasn't had any other signs of being sick. Luckily when she did throw up we were just pulling into the drive way so she didn't have to sit in it for very long. Poor thing vomited three times. Then it was like she felt much better. I gave her a little bath and then put her to bed. She went right down and didn't fuss or vomit anymore that night. She woke up the next morning just her chipper little self. Weird!

January 19th, Aaron is in Tennessee on business. So Jade and I went back down to my mom's and hung out all day. I've noticed that we have hit a high maintainence stage with Jade. She doesn't like to just sit and play with her toys anymore. Now that she can crawl around and now even stand, she thinks she needs to be on the move at all times. She especially loves to hold onto your fingers and take steps. She's gotten really good over the last week and will walk around as a long as you will hold on to her fingers. She absolutely loves it and that's the only thing she wants to do. It's very tiring and getting pretty annoying. I mean don't get me wrong, it's cute that she is starting to walk around but really. I'm sick of bending over and holding on to her fingers. Part of me just wants her to start walking, although that would be a nightmare. At least she could be on her own when she did that.


Jade in a shopping cart at Maceys. We put here in the cart and she loved it. She thought she was really driving a car. She would hold on to the steering wheel and honk the horn. She was really cute. And then she pooed everywhere. She had it on her tights, skirt, turtleneck, back, legs etc. I used twenty wipes and Jade ended up leaving the store in only a diaper. Remind you it's January. I think every mom there was ready to call DCFS on me for having my child in only a diaper in 20 degree weather. :)

January 20th, Poor Cierra. She was playing with Jade and she ended up scratching Cierra's eye. At first we just thought Cierra had taken a finger to the eye but after several hours and Cierra still couldn't open up her eye, I took her to JVH and had one of my doctors take a look at it. Sydney told her she had a scratch on her cornea and that she needed to use antibiotic eye drops for a couple of days. We put in some numbing drops and the first dose of antibiotic drops and by the time we got back to mom's house her eye was feeling much better. At least she could open it. Poor thing!!


Paige, Cierra and Jade at the THS basketball game. This is right after Cierra got a finger to the eye.

January 23rd, Jade had her first try at a hotdog and loved it. I was eating one for lunch and gave her a bite. She ate the rest of it for me.
Jade is also getting better at saying Kitty. It still is Kit but it's clearer and she says it everytime she sees one of our cats or Mom Gunn's cats.


Paige and Jade playing the piano together.

January 24th, I let Jade lick the egg beaters today. I was making a cake and let her taste one. She loved it so much that I put her in her highchair, put on the bib and let her have one. She thought it was the best thing.



January 26th, Jade had her 9 month check up today. She had to have it a little early because our Pediatrican, Cami Goff, is going on maternity leave sometime in the first of February. So we thought we would get her in a little early so we could see her. Jade is doing really well. She is 18.14 lbs, 27 inches long, and 17 inches in her head circumference. She is still in the 50th percentile for everything. She is eating table foods really well. She still continues to have baby food and drinks it out of her infant feeder. But she's bascially eating three square meals a day. She can clap her hands and is in the beginngings of learning how to wave. Cami says she's still very advanced for her age and seems to doing really well.

January 27

Jade decided to just climb Mom Gunn's stairs all by herself. Mom Gunn ran over to make sure she didn't fall but she seemed to have the hang of it. Great, now she climbs stairs too. This is all happening way to fast.

January 30th, Dad Gunn bought Jade a cool gate for their house. It's big enough that you can make a play pen out of it. So we corral her in it and toss in all her toys. She plays in the living room while Mom Gunn and I scrapbook in the kitchen. Jade does really well until someone talks to her. Then she realizes that she's trapped and wants to get out.


The awesome new gate.